Hey X's it's me, I'm back.
How are you? I hope you're well. As I write this currently, in officially eleven days I'll be moving. Time has managed to slow down but also speed up, and I'm ready. SIKEEEEEE, no I'm not.
Adulting. Geesh, sounds pretty demanding right? I've learned expressing aloud you're nervous only results in "you'll be alright", and expressing you're ready only results in "you're saying that now until --." Therefore, I am both nervous and surprisingly ready. I talked to a long time friend today, as she expressed the feelings of adulting. She described it as a sense of realism, "there aren't any excuses once you're grown" she exclaimed.
"Paying bills f**cking sucks", my aunt elaborated. Can a few of us agree? Well, I will in eleven days. It feels a bit unreal, this level of adulting is modish. I'm not quite use to this, yet that's the scary part though right? Right.
Welcoming Baby Dallas!
This Saturday, I attended a dear friend of mine baby shower. And may I add, it was absolutely beautiful. Congratulations De’Kaya on baby Dallas! As a girl, I managed to meet De’kaya and Jay in grade school. The three of us instantly clung to one another, than we somehow shared the same art class. There, we talked about every and anything under the sun, but mostly our dreams; goals.
De’kaya was always the silliest; laid back friend. Jay and I never saw her pregnancy coming, though we doubt anything other than greatness from her with raising her child. De’kaya’s pregnancy highlights our youth days are officially over, and we’re all grown now. We were just girls saying children were the last things on our mind, and now we’re welcoming baby Dallas soon. It’s unbelievable, but again so freaking exciting.
Jay and I held a mini road trip, and we talked about everything. Jay managed to move to Florida a few years back, but we’ve always stayed in touch. Our road trip was spent rekindling, sharing unconditional love, and fetal laughter. I never knew how much I truly missed my friend. But the mini trip reminded me of old times. The two of us reminisced, but also talked about our modern lives; livelihoods. We’re all adulting and thriving, but in many different aspects now.
But nonetheless, I’m grateful to have such friends. Those lifelong, let’s stop everything, for one another friends. Baby Dallas only welcomed the many reunions we’ll share in the incoming future, yet I’m so excited.
Though, De’kaya is a new mother, Jay is heading back to Florida, and I’m starting college soon in a new place we’re still going to show up for one another. It’s in our nature.
Just as a birthday approaches, it’s a reality of growing older. Me and Jay both admitted, and as the years progress the feelings get scarier. I can no longer blame my youth for mistakes or plead I'm just a child. That's when the "no excuse" part comes to play, as Jay mentioned.
The Transfer..
I labeled this blog The Transfer, because this is me officially saying goodbye to my youth, and transforming into my adulthood. Just admitting that is a bit emotional, but it's a reality for all. Now, however, you plan to welcome your adulthood is solely up to you. But me, I deeply hope I manage and survive mine correctly. When adulting a do over is sometimes enviable, because then it's sometimes too late.
Did your parents or family members have a hard time accepting your adulthood? Maybe so, because they all do, but you wonder why? Well here's the why, once you're an adult it's harder to run to your recuse and clean all your mistakes. It's harder to just rest the blame/aftermath on them now, because well you're all grown up.
Adulting is a big deal, whether you're ready to admit it or not. So, cheers to my transfer into adulthood!
I’m eager to decorate my room, but maybe I’ll like to go home shortly afterwards. Who knows? But, let’s see how I'll feel afterwards. Wow, I’m officially adulting. I can’t shake the feeling. But as always, be easy X’s, until next time. Perhaps, I’ll be in Murfreesboro by then lol.